My Twisted Sunshine / 我扭阳光

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Omo! Why was this given to me?
Usually Drum Captains get this award every year.
I admitted to my band teacher that I felt I didn't deserve it, but he said I did.
Plus, all the lower classmen thought I deserved it. o_O
This was just awarded to me last night.
I thought for sure it was going to be Raymond and Josh.
But, when the band teacher listed all these things I did as he made one of his "possible made from the impossible" speech, I was literally speechless.
As soon as he said from Honor Band, I thought it would be awarded to Josh and Ry.
As soon as he said "fixing parts of the music to make things easier", I immediately knew he was talking about me, but I had to make sure.
(He said all these things in our annual band banquet.)
As soon as he mentioned "she", I kept swaring.
"Oh, shit, shit shit shit SHIT!"
I was trying to hold back me tears. It worked.
Always does.
I immediately pointed out in my head that I remember the Honor Band this year.
The only girl percussionist was me.
The band teacher (I shall call him director) mentioned marimbas, xylophones, and mallet stuff.
I cried on the inside.
My sister, Connie, (yes, I used her as a character in my story, Guardian. Please read that later on.) looked as though she read my ming, and smiled so brightly at me.
So, she still looks up to me, huh.
Thought that period of admiring your older sister was over.
Right when the band director said my name, I heard hollering and loud screams from behind me and all around me.
I only formed a small smile on my face as I quickly made my pace to walk up to the stage.
I hugged the band director, and everyone went "Awww~!"
I quickly made a short bow as I walked off stage.
Dude, I was like freaking nervous!
There were a lot of people being awarded in this banquet.
Even our band director got a plaque and a special pin!
Thank Kevin and Elizabeth for this idea! :D
Plus, our #1 band mom just graduated at that award banquet, which means she'll be leaving us! :(
But, no worries, she'll still contact us if we need to see her or that we miss her. :)
When the band banquet was over, most people left because it was around 8:45 PM??
Whatever. I'm still on that shock process.
Almost everyone I was familiar with who stayed after the banquet was over hugged me in sweet embraces.
They kept congratulating me.
I felt so happy.
Josh said he admitted that he thought he deserved the award, but just as well, he felt proud I got the award.
As he said that, he kept kissing the top of my head as he hugged me tightly.
I felt so confused.
Was he... jealous?
I felt bad. Later on, I heard from Konini (yeah, sometimes I call her that!) that Josh and David were the only ones so far who didn't think I deserved the award.
I know how Josh felt, and I'm glad he admitted it, but I didn't know why David felt that way about me.
I got a bit upset.
I wish he was more open to me like Josh was.
I'm still shocked over the small plaque I got.
Percussion Musician of the Year 2009-2010.
I'm not revealing my real name yet, but I'll tell you that my name was printed on it. :D
This band year has been interesting for me.
I'm going to miss the seniors - they'll no longer be hanging out in the band room during class now! D:
I'm going to be a senior! *shock* guilun Pictures, Images and Photos

Just finished SATs in the early morning with Ry.
We went to Norwalk High School to take them.
Can't mention any stuff, though. Sorry. :(
Now I will be taking the ACT this Saturday morning at Los Alamitos High School.
Why there?
My father's taking me, and he'll be going to the horse racing track while I take my exams.
Silly fathers. :) Love my daddy!
I'm a daddy's little girl. hehe~
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I have to think about my future now!
Argg~!
I'm actually sticking to music as my major.
I believe I can become a talented musician in the Asian entertainment industry.
Xiao Yu Dian, fighting! Jiayou!
My mother wanted me to be a doctor, but depending on how many people I know pursuing the medical career, I'd predict that in the future, there will be too many people not knowing anything else but medicine! Haha~!
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I'm thinging about dying my hair burgundy.
People think I look similar to my sister to the point of thinking that that 4ft 9 inched sister of mine is me!
I'm a foot taller than her, at least!
Taemin Lee Pictures, Images and Photos

Labels: BLAH, change, drumline, embarrass, Fahrenheit, fresh look, hair, hard work paid off, high school, info, jealous, new, optimistic pessimistic, P.M., real, Taemin, unusual, youth

# random thougths @ 10:35 AM

Monday, April 5, 2010

10 AM in the morning, and my little sister and I ended up not going to Drumline practice due to heavy rain and the waxed band room floor that Ulises looks like he's having fun in.

Just running around, back and forth like an idiot.

And next thing you know, it turns into sunshine quickly around noon to 1 PM.

Still at the process of translating my English blogs of this year into Mandarin Chinese.

But for now, I'm extremely busy.

For one, I need to eat because my mother says so.

If you're ever visiting our house, you MUST eat.

Feels like it's a rule or something here.

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Okay, now I've been done eating a long time ago.

Just got back from the mall.

Thought I would get to go to the library to drop books and pick up new ones, but I realize we only have time for that tomorrow.

When my family went out, they went to the bank after dropping off 2 of the kids that my mother tutors.

Afterwards, we all ended up eating out at the Goldilocks restaurant + store.

My father wanted to eat lomi, but it turns out they ran out of lomi! hahaha

He ended up eating mami. :-)

When we got to the mall afterwards, I could've sworn I saw Miko.

(Note: I'm starting to forget who's who from last year's blog posts, so I'll have to just use the 1st names of the people I interact with in my life.)

Now, I know a few guys named Miko.

But this is THE guy.

This is the Miko who's father had been friends with my father ever since they started working together.

This is the Miko who I've spent my childhood years with ever since I could remember practically anything at the time.

This is the Miko who I've counted how many girlfriends he had in the past.

This is the Miko who decided to lose contact with me after the 7th grade of February.

This is the same Miko who hasn't contacted me in 4 years, and who last year I decided not to call him Kuya anymore.

("Kuya" means "older brother" in Tagalog.)

As my mother, my sister, and I opened the glass mall door, I could've sworn I saw him coming right out past me.

He was a bit skinnier now, and he looked kind of just like me with the glasses he was now wearing.

It was typical of him to be with a pretty girl at the time.

This was today, and I even told my mother and my little sister what I thought I saw.

Immediately not looking back (and not caring), they told me it wasn't really him.

But I'm sticking to my gut and still definitely know that I saw him.

After all these years...

I really wished for him to be like an older brother to me again, but apparently life don't roll that way.

I'm typing really quick as fast as I can so that my mother could use the computer.

I spent about $39 at Anchor Blue and ended up with $38 in my wallet.

I wanted to save at least $6 for next week when I go back to school.

I figured I could give Roxane (Treasurer of the Anime Club) the money so she could collect all $30 together and turn it into the computer so that I can go to the Anime Expo.

So far, I don't think I'm there yet, but I won't give up on saving money! :-)

Plus, I need to save more money so that I can go shop good stuff downtown.

Like, around Chinatown.

Haven't been there since I was 10 years old.

I have a small red Chinese traditional blouse, and now I feel like I need to buy a new one.

I have a hunch that prices might be cheaper downtown anyway....

I'm planning to go Friday with my family.

Either that, or I can actually try to go with friends.

But then again, most people might probably say that they "have plans" and are "too busy" to go out on one night with me.

But, I mean, come on!

I barely go out with anyone!

And even my little sister acts like she's cooler than me simply because she goes out with people!

Just now my mother gave my little sister $8 from my wallet.

So now I have $30.

Starting tomorrow, I'll continue doing my homework.

I just wish I get to hang out with friends in the evening like other teens do.

It's just a matter of trust and closeness relationships with people.

I've been a good little girl for too long.

I NEED TO GO OUT!

"......................................................................................."

..................and now you see why I'm still wanting to look for my Prince.....................

I need him to rescue me from this nightmare of a boring, normal life.

I need him to at least go on dates with me and like me for who I am - looks, mind, and soul.

I need him to need me, because to him, ever since he met me, somehow he can't help but feel incomplete without me.

Please, if anyone's out there, please help me find my Prince.

Help me meet him.............

Labels: A.M., blogs, change, drumline, expensive, family, glasses, info, Mandarin, otaku, P.M., rain, unusual, waiting, you

# random thougths @ 3:09 PM

Sunday, April 4, 2010

This month is a test for me.

To see if I can survive school problems and social life.
So far, I'm meeting halfway to the destination of success.
Right now I'm spending my 3rd Spring Break Day at my family friend Jen's house.
Earlier my family was at another Easter party.
XD So stereotypical of our one big family to sing karaoke!
You know, since we're Filipino.
While I'm typing this blog, I have an episode to load.
As soon as I'm done typing, I'll watch it.
It's the 1st episode of Down With Love.
It's starring Jerry Yan and Ella Chen.
As soon as this party is done and I'll go home, I'll have to do my homework. :(
It's not much, really, as long as I don't slow down the process.
My cousin Jimboy is here in the room with me right now.
He's just too busy playing his PSP.
As for me, I'm officially bored.
I wanted to continue watching MoMo Love, but Viikii Network is currently unavailable because of YouTube matters.
Ha~~~......yes, that was a sigh.
On April Fools Day, I went to a Sadies dance.
The theme was Blackout. :D
It was fun.
On April Fools Day, my sister went to an anti-Sadies dance.
I don't know what the theme was, but I heard our senior high schooler, Danny, sat on her. haha
Oh! There was also the earthquake today!
Thanks, Jimboy, for reminding me.
I just sat on the grass in the backyard of the earlier Easter party.
I was eating cake, when suddenly the ground starts slowly moving back and forth.
I looked around me, and I was like,
"Dude, is it me or is the ground moving?!"
and also:
"What's going on?"
I watched as everyone calmly went outside and hung around the big white porch stand.
When I saw how calm they were, I was like,
"Hey, I think there's something in the cake that's making me feel dizzy..."
My dad was shouting,
"Yu Dian!
Don't you feel the eartquake?!"
I look at him while still sitting down on the grassy dirt with the
What do you think?
look.
I'll write more later, because I gotta get back to watching Down With Love.

Labels: :-), family, football late game band norwalk competition, friends, fun, funny, lazy, life, little stuff, looking, unusual, update, waiting, weird, youth

# random thougths @ 5:57 PM

Thursday, March 19, 2009

This is a video of Zhang Xuan - Bao Bei. This video has English subtitles AND Pinyin Lyrics.

这是一个视频的章吁鹌-保北。此影片已英文字幕，并拼音歌词。

Enjoy. :]

享受。 :]

Now, let's keep up with Jin Ai Princess:

现在，让我们跟上靳哎公主：

1. 1st week of February - Monday was PJ Day and Sun Tan Shuai Princess's birthday. Tuesday was Twin Day, but Jin Ai didn't participate in it. It was also Jackie Princess and Tony Prince's birthday.

1 。 2月第1周-周一是PJ日和（孙谈书哀/公主）的生日。周二是双床的一天，但靳癌没有参加。也有人成龙公主和托尼王子的生日。

Wednesday was Stoplight Day; meaning red for relationship, yellow for currently seeing each other, and green for single. Meng Ping Li Prince wore a yellow shirt with a handmade sign that said [Currently Single] in green on the front shirt. On the back of his shirt, it says [Currently Taken] in red. How smart was that! Jin Ai only wore green.

星期三是Stoplight日;意思是红的关系，黄牌为目前看到对方，和绿色的单一。孟霹嗯李王子穿着黄色T恤，以手工制作的迹象，表示[目前单一]的绿色T恤的前面。在回到他的衬衫，它说[目前采取]为红色。多么聪明的是！靳癌只穿着绿色。

Thursday was Decades Day, and Jin Ai just wore her usual "unusual outfits" that stand out so well, but at the same time no one wants to notice her so she blends in easily.Friday was Rivalry Day, so she wore travel uniform to the Spirit Rally at the gym in school.

周四几十年日，靳爱她通常只穿着“不同寻常的装备”的立场，这样很好，但在同一时间没有人想通知她，让她在轻松共混。竞争日是星期五，所以她穿制服的旅行在拉力赛的精神在学校的体育馆。

2. February 12th - Lincoln's birthday

2 。 2月12日-林肯诞辰

It was the deadline for buying roses at lunchtime. Jin Ai became a little "errand boy" and Fan Mei Shen Prince wanted to give a Valentine gift to his girlfriend, Er Kun Ning Princess through Jin Ai's connections in high school; since he's a junior high schooler.

这是最后期限购买玫瑰在午饭时间。靳癌成为一个小“差事男孩”和范枚申王子想给情人节礼物送给他的女朋友，尔坤宁公主至靳嫒的连接高中;因为他是一个初中高高中生。

3. Valentine's Day - Bekka Princess's birthday

3 。情人节- 贝卡公主诞辰

...Jin Ai doesn't know why she's blogging this date. This date must have been special, since she marked it. Must have something to do with either Bei Jing Nu Prince or Hu Rui You Prince...

...靳哎不知道为什么她的博客这一日期。此日期必须是特殊的，因为她标志着它。必须跟任何北荆奴王子或胡瑞您王子 ...

4. February 15th - Mom's birthday

4 。 2月15日-妈妈的生日

The preschool-kindergarden classes from church not only celebrated Valentine's Day, but also celebrated Jin Ai's mother's birthday.

学前班- kindergarden班由教会不仅庆祝情人节，但也庆祝靳矮的母亲的生日。

5. February 16th - President's Day

5 。 2月16日-总统日

This was not only a holiday, but Guan Rong Xian Princess and Ma Man Rui Princess's birthdays. There was also a drumline practice, and again Jin Ai doesn't remember what important event happened at that drumline.

这不仅是一个节日，但关戎西安公主和马万瑞公主的生日。还有一个乐鼓热线实践，再靳呆不记得有什么重要的事件发生在乐鼓热线。

6. February 19th - District Honor Band Concert at Excel High

6 。 2月19日-区荣誉音乐会在Excel中高

Jin Ai's mother bought 2 pieces of weird outfits for her to wear that night. The Jia family was just there to watch Xiao Mei perform with the concert band. Lui Jing Xian Prince thought Jin Ai looked "eccentric".

靳癌的母亲买了2件奇怪的衣服，她穿的夜晚。贾府的家庭是有看肖梅执行乐队的演唱会。吕明荆西安王子以为靳癌期待“偏心” 。

7. February 21st - Drumline practice and Jackie Princess's birthday

7 。 2月21日-乐鼓热线实践和成龙公主的生日

Everyone knows about that now.

人人了解，现在。

8. February 26th - Ping Li's leave for the Philippines

8 。 2月26日-李平的离开菲律宾

Jin Ai sang in private to Ping Li the "Wen Hou Ge" song. He raised an eyebrow once she made some eye contact with him throughout the singing. Jin Ai saw Ping Li's small, soft smile forming. She got nervous and messed the lyrics up in the end. She ran up to hug him. She told him she'd miss him. Ping Li reassured that he'll come back in 2 weeks.

靳癌相非公开会议，李平“文郈歌”的歌曲。他提出了一个眉毛一旦她取得了一些目光接触他整个唱歌。靳癌看到李平的小，软的笑容形成。她安寝把玩歌词中结束。她跑到拥抱他。她告诉他，她会想念他。李平保证，他会回来的2个星期。

Then, Jin Ai let go of hugging and pulled something from her vest. It was the Pinyin lyrics and English subtitles to "Wen Hou Ge". She gave the folded printed lyrics to Ping Li, then ran off a bit, saying:

接着，靳埃放开拥抱和拉的东西从她的背心。这是拼音歌词和英文字幕的“闻后阁” 。她给了折叠印刷歌词，李平，然后跑了一点，他说：

"Keep this with you always, okay?" Ping Li nodded politely. Guys like him - Jin Ai would love to go for as her boyfriend. But, she knows it will never be. He might not have the same feelings for her. So, she pushes her feelings for him aside and moves on to the next world.

“保持这个同你们在一起，好不好？ ”李平点头礼貌。像他-靳爱就爱去为她的男友。但是，她知道这将永远不会。他可能不会有同样的感受给她。所以，她把她的感情，他一边移动到下一世界。

9. February 27th - Montie High at nighttime for drumline performance

9 。 2月27日- Montie高，夜间为乐鼓热线性能

Jin Ai's school's drumline, Suburban High, performed professionally at their best at Montie High School. It was awesome. :]

靳癌的学校的乐鼓热线，郊区高，表现在他们的专业最好Montie高中。这很可怕。 :]

10. Last day of February - 1st Drumline Show

10 。 2月最后一天-第一乐鼓热线查看

The Surburban High Drumline got 1st place! Yes! Although there was a lot of flukes during the standstill performance, the performance was still the best! Yeah~~~ baby!

高乐鼓热线的Surburban获得第一名！是！虽然有很多吸虫在停顿的业绩，表现仍是最好的！是啊〜〜〜宝贝！

Labels: birthday, color, February, high school, love, prince, princess, silent, suburban, unusual, 沉默，公主，王子，颜色， 2月，爱，不寻常的，郊区，高中，生日

# random thougths @ 7:29 PM